I kinda brought this upon myself. A lot of stuff happened in my early youth, and I repressed it for years and I think that’s what caused it (cancer) for some reason. I just have a gut feeling about it. I’ve been going through a breakdown now, because I’m trying to let go of everything that happened and forgive the people that caused it. I don’t think the chemo is doing its job; so I’m turning to anything I can to start healing.