Since starting my spirituality journey I have been supressing negative emotioons because I was striving to be "spiritual". I forgot who I really am: crazy, bitchy, emotional fireball and pretended to be always positive, nice and calm. Last year made it hard to pretend and brought up all of my shadows so hard, I could not longer supress it. I am sharing these to help others to accept themselves as they are. This is a true spirituality for me.