If you're going through a season of darkness, or a loss of meaning, purpose, identity, direction, fulfilment --or even any kind of intense discombobulation-- I've got you.

I'm reporting from the thick of a existential crisis, as grounded and centred as possible; to rechart a map of the territory to know that there is a way through, and to hopefully provide something useful for those standing at a similar threshold.

We’ll explore the hallmarks of an existential crisis, the collapse of the old, the initiatory descent, some insight into my private struggles, confronting the wounds in the underworld, the early beginnings of reorientation and re-emergence, and how to navigate it all with as much awareness, honesty and care as possible.

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This is the opening chapter of a new program that I've been sitting on for a while now, which I call: Anchoring The Vision... which is a step by step guide of how to ground your vision into tangible reality. 

A lot of people have peak experiences and catch a glimpse of future timelines; of what could be (the greater vision), but have extreme difficulty in staying committed AND in knowing how to ground this vision into the physical world.

If you want to learn how to do so with time-tested systems, frameworks, structure and more, drawing from ancient wisdom and modern mindset, consider this your program to learn exactly how to do it.

If you want access to the entire first Module for free, punch your email into the link below and I'll send it out as soon as it's released.

⏩ https://www.caiyudakiora.com/vision

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It's a cliché critique: that there's too many cowboys in the medicine space.

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Imelda Almqvist is an international teacher of Sacred Art and Seiðr/Old Norse Traditions (the ancestral wisdom teachings of Northern Europe). ⁠She has her own Forest School in Sweden, in a remote place where the Forest Meets the Sea and where wolves (sometimes) howl at night.

Imelda appears in a TV program, titled Ice Age Shaman, made for the Smithsonian Museum, in the series Mystic Britain, talking about Mesolithic arctic deer shamanism. She has also presented her work on Sounds True and The Shift Network.

 Her five non-fiction books include:

🔹Natural Born Shamans: A Spiritual Toolkit for Life (2016)

The Green Bear is her series of picture books for children, aged 3 – 8 years. The Scandinavian stories and vibrant artwork invite children to explore enchanting parallel worlds and to keep their sense of magic alive as they grow up.

She is currently working on a book about Inuit deities and mythology.

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TOPICS WE COVER IN THIS EPISODE:

🔹Writing as a Spiritual Practice

🔹Dream journaling since teenage years

🔹Writing as spirit-led, not a conscious decision

🔹Imelda's forest school as a place for spiritual and shamanic development

🔹Sitting on grave mounds as an ancestral practice

🔹Imelda's painting sabbatical in Greenland under the northern lights

🔹Ceremonial work in Greenland honoring local deities like Sedna and Sila

🔹Reconnecting with neglected deities and ancestral spirits

🔹How imagination serves as an interface for spiritual connection

🔹The importance of discernment between real connection vs projected fantasy

🔹Imelda's time connecting with the Arctic people, including the Sami

🔹The complex dynamics of ancient tradition vs modern lifestyle

🔹The impact of historical trauma on indigenous cultures

🔹Imelda's initiation into elderhood

🔹Embracing the Hag archetype as Baba Yaga's daughter

🔹And much more...

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Jordan is a devoted practitioner of the shamanic healing arts and a teacher dedicated to the medicine path. His initiations first came through a decade of gnostic studies in Asia.

Otto Maier is a retreat leader with Tandava Retreats and the Head of Integration at FIVE. 

Through his private practice, _Soul & Psyche_, he supports individuals in navigating both ecstatic and traumatic states of consciousness by blending Depth Psychology, Internal Family Systems (IFS), Somatic work, Non-Pathologizing frameworks, and the ongoing decolonization of the modern psyche.

Otto’s integrative approach to healing and psychedelic work has been translated into educational programs for fellow therapists and guides, adapted into training curricula across the psychedelic field, and is currently being applied in research on 5-MeO-DMT. 

⁠His work centers on honoring the full range of human experience—not as something to fix, but something to be in a deep and reverent relationship with.

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TOPICS WE COVER IN THIS EPISODE:

🔸Understanding 5-MeO-DMT Misconceptions

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Joey Remenyi is vestibular audiologist, neuroplasticity educator, author and creator of the Rock Steady and Sensing Ground Programs.

She supports people living with high sensitivity and unusual persistent body sensations to find the wisdom of their body and to follow their own inner intelligence.

Joey believes that each person is their own expert and she teaches sovereignty, self-authority and somatic-spiritual philosophy. 

In her recent TEDx, she talks about the invisible forces that shape us and the body as our compass. Joey asks the question: What if body sensations are our portal into higher wisdom?

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TOPICS WE COVER IN THIS EPISODE:

🔹The body as a compass

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The term psychedelic, meaning “mind manifesting,” is often framed through the lens of cognitive experience - the brain-mind. But what if “mind” includes not just the brain, but the heart, the gut, the body, and beyond?

The recreational scene has a fixation on the visuals, the novelty, the highs, the fun - and while I'm not necessarily against recreational use, I think this part of the psychedelic culture could use some deeper contextualization to begin inhabiting a more full expression of what these experiences can truly offer.

We explore that, and more, in this weeks episode.

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Mark Nara is the founder of Tattoo Pathway: an educational resource created to guide both clients and tattoo professionals toward a deeper, more meaningful approach to tattooing—one rooted in growth, intention, and sacred practice. 

Mark has been walking this path for roughly two decades, starting with an old-school apprenticeship before transitioning into more of a spiritual apprenticeship with a traditional holy man, which opened a new chapter of integrating tattooing with spiritual reality. 

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TOPICS WE COVER IN THIS EPISODE:

🔹Tattoos as a pathway to explore identity and belonging

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