Have you ever felt unsure of taking medication? Or have you doubted that you even needed help in the first place? I am talking about my first experience with taking medication and how it felt when I thought the people close to me could help me. My doctor took my voice my business partner told me to power through it. Have you ever felt so alone that it feels like you are drowning? You are not alone. There are communities that you can talk to. 

https://www.healthfulchat.org/bipolar-chat-room.html

https://www.7cups.com/home/bipolar/

https://www.dbsalliance.org/