A lot of people feel that being good is the means to God's approval. He definitely wants us to make good decisions, but here's the thing, God is all about grace. We're going to mess up, but His grace awaits.
Keep leaning in to Him. He will grow you, strengthen you, give you endurance to run the full race. And at the end of it, He will be there with His perfect and loving grace, to hold you in His arms and welcome you home.