Podcast Episode Notes: Oddly Robbie's Journey Through LDS Corrective Therapy

Content Warning: This episode contains explicit content related to corrective therapy, including discussions of inappropriate behavior and emotional distress. Listener discretion is advised.

Introduction

Hello, wonderful listeners! It’s your quirky friend Oddly Robbie, ready to take you on a rollercoaster ride through one of the most challenging chapters of my life. Today, we’re diving into my experiences with LDS corrective therapy and Evergreen International. This story carries a powerful message about embracing our true selves and the dangers of trying to "fix" what isn’t broken.

The Beginning of the End

Portland, 2014. I was deeply entrenched in the LDS Church, struggling with being both Mormon and gay—like trying to mix oil and water. The Church’s rigid doctrines constantly reminded me that my true self wasn’t welcome. Enter Evergreen International, a so-called beacon of hope for those labeled as needing "correction."

The Sessions

My first session with a therapist recommended by the Church social services made me feel less than human. He suggested my issues stemmed from a lack of touch from my dad and offered to give me a massage. He also had me verbalize my thoughts into a tape recorder, planning to "inject" disgusting words into my fantasies—a manipulative scam.

Evergreen International: More Shadows Than Light

Evergreen used a 12-step program similar to Alcoholics Anonymous but for those struggling with "same-sex attraction." Weekly meetings felt more like confessions than support groups, reinforcing the idea that same-sex attraction was an illness to be cured.

The Turning Point

I realized I wasn’t just fighting to "fix" myself—I was fighting for my very existence. The emotional toll was immense, leaving me more isolated and broken. However, this dark chapter led to a pivotal moment of self-acceptance and advocacy.

Exposing the Truth

Years later, I shared my experiences on a satellite radio talk show and in the book Voices from the Rainbow (under the pseudonym Leo). Exposing Evergreen’s harmful practices was cathartic, helping me heal and reclaim my identity.

The Aftermath and a Call to Action

Evergreen International closed in 2014, merging with North Star, which doesn’t claim to change sexual orientation. This marked a significant change, but the scars of corrective therapy still linger for many.

Why This Matters

Corrective therapy, in any form, is harmful. It tells individuals they need to change a fundamental part of who they are to be accepted. My journey through Evergreen is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the importance of embracing our true selves.

A Message of Hope

To anyone struggling with their identity: You are not broken. You don’t need fixing. Embrace who you are, love yourself fiercely, and know you are worthy of love and acceptance just as you are.

Final Thoughts

Sharing this story isn’t just about reflecting on the past; it’s about advocating for a future where no one has to endure the trauma of corrective therapy. Let’s continue to fight for acceptance, understanding, and love for all.

Thanks for coming along on this journey with me. Stay quirky, stay true, and remember—you’re perfect just the way you are.