In this raw and captivating episode of I'm in Control, I sit down with the extraordinary Amanda Goff – acclaimed journalist, bestselling author, and the woman behind Australia’s most famous escort persona, Samantha X. From navigating two identities to confronting bipolar disorder, Amanda opens up about the power of reinvention and the deep healing that comes from self-awareness.

We delve into her transition from journalism to sex work, why she created an agency for women over 40, and how stepping into Samantha gave her back control after a lifetime of complicated relationships with men. Amanda also speaks candidly about the emotional cost of disassociation, getting sober, receiving a life-altering diagnosis, and rebuilding her life from the ground up.

00:00 – Introduction: Amanda’s incredible journey and multiple reinventions

05:00 – From newsroom to escort: creating Samantha X

10:00 – Living a double life and being diagnosed with bipolar

15:00 – The emotional toll and public fallout of her choices

20:00 – On stigma, shame, and learning radical compassion

25:00 – Health challenges, heart issues, and the fragility of life

30:00 – Women supporting women and finding true community

35:00 – What growth really looks like: pain, healing, and freedom

This is a powerful, unfiltered conversation about identity, courage, and refusing to be defined by your past. Amanda’s wisdom, wit, and honesty will leave you reflecting on your own journey and inspired to live with fewer regrets and more authenticity.