It’s now been 2 years since I took what I thought was a break for a few weeks. I considered starting again so many times, but it felt too overwhelming. I wasn’t sure how to begin and what to say. 

Somehow, a few weeks ago I felt like starting, and so I recorded a 15 min. ‘ice breaker’. Trust me, it’s messy. But, guess what- that’s exactly where I’m at. I usually obsess over details and trying to make everything perfect, but I’m experimenting with going the other way here. I ramble, probably don’t make sense and likely contradict myself, but I think that is more real than any kind of perfectly scripted talk. Ultimately, I think there is some value in sharing messiness. It’s always connected with me when others shared their real story. And, I can’t just begin again here without acknowledging the loss and grief I’ve been going through in the past 20 months. 

So, if you are interested in listening, here it is.