You don't get to become a badass without going through some hard things. When people are judging you, it is from their insecurities. They haven't been through it. Your wisdom comes from strength and experience. Not everyone is going to go through what you are going through, we are all on separate journeys. This is your journey, you get to do with it what you want. This struggle you're in is helping you build your future Badass. Be proud of that.