If you find out, can you let me know?

It's a difficult situation. You barely trust yourself, but you also want to trust others.

You can't do that either.

There are many methods to build trust in others, you have to test it out on yourself first. Find the openings in your schedule. Look for ways to change your trust. Work within a structure. Understand why you're wasting time and how you can proceed from there.

All these things help you find trust in yourself. The real question is who is letting you down in your personal life and what can you do to make the change?