Today I Learned that I just have to control what I can control. It’s been difficult trying to attract the type of girl that I want. I seem to get half way there. The latest pattern I’m in is shorty flirts with me, I get the digits, I text shorty a couple days later and she doesn’t respond. It’s confusing? I’m don’t even take it personal anymore. The reason that comes to mind when I ask myself “Why would they do this?” The answer that comes to mind is they just wanted to see if they could get me or they maybe just lost interest. Even though being stuck in this pattern is discouraging. The only thing I can do is control what I can control. I can’t control whether or not this specific girl likes me. But I can control how attractive I can be. I can get a shape up, do the push ups, and wear the cologne. The thing that bothers me though is that this is a lot of effort being exerted. There is a part of me that says “Is it really that serious?” But the answer is always an affirmative yes. I’ve been in past relationships were there was no mutual passion at all. The relationship was really a thinly veiled friendship. Beauty and attractiveness matter more to people than they’d like to admit. It sounds superficial and silly but it’s a timeless truth. I’ve accepted that having an attractive girlfriend is something that is necessary for a long term relationship. So even though it’s more difficult to attract one of the beautiful ones I’m just gonna thug it out. I’m just gonna control what I can control. I can continually improve my attractiveness and I can consistently keep sweet talking random good looking girls. I think that will be enough but I’m not exactly sure. We’ll see.