Cry Now, Laugh Later

What happens when your struggle with food doesn’t look like what people expect?

In this episode, I’m opening up about binge eating, orthorexia, and the complicated relationship between wanting to be healthy and becoming consumed by it. I talk about the things we praise without knowing the full story, why I didn’t believe I was “sick enough” to need help, and what recovery feels like when the thoughts haven’t completely disappeared.

An honest conversation about what people see, what they miss, and learning to take your own struggle seriously.

Content note: Discussion of eating disorders and body image.

When did being yourself start feeling like something you had to think so hard about?

In this episode, I’m talking about 5 small ways I’ve been practicing being more myself... finding things I love just because I love them, speaking up about what I actually want, letting myself be excited without toning it down, apologizing less, and changing the way I talk to myself.

This isn’t about becoming a “better version” of yourself. It’s about getting a little more comfortable being the version you want to be!

The more you trust yourself in the small moments, the easier it gets to stop editing yourself in the big ones.

I was supposed to run a marathon this year, but instead, my body had other plans. Wamp.

In this episode, I’m talking about living with chronic illness, what running has come to mean to me, and what it felt like to have something I worked so hard for taken off the table because of circumstances completely outside of my control.

This one is about the anger. The disappointment. The “are you fucking kidding me?” of it all. But it’s also about learning that sometimes life just keeps lifeing and having to change the plan doesn’t mean you failed!

I’m not running the marathon I thought I would this year.

But I’m not giving up. 2027 Mark my fucking words.

Have you ever looked around and felt like everybody else has it all figured out, except you?

In this episode, I’m talking about that constant feeling of “what am I doing wrong?”—the overthinking, the loneliness, the fear that maybe you’re the problem, and the way we can convince ourselves that everyone else has it figured out while we’re secretly failing behind the scenes.

But the more honest we are with each other, the more obvious it becomes: nobody really knows what the fuck they’re doing. We’re all getting things wrong, changing our minds, crying, starting over, and figuring it out as we go.

Maybe you’re not failing at life. Maybe you’re just human.

This one is for anyone who needs to hear: you are not the only one.

How much of your life have you wasted worrying about what other people might think?

In this episode, I’m talking about the imaginary audience in our heads, the fear of being seen trying, and why being a little cringe might be the price of actually living your life. If you’ve been waiting to just finally do what you want; here’s your reminder: to do it because respectfully, no one cares... nearly as much as you think they do.

*Content note: This episode includes brief, non-graphic mentions of childhood sexual abuse and eating disorders. Please listen with care*

I bought a microphone, sat alone in a room, and (somehow) didn’t question every decision that led me here. It might be hard, awkward, and imperfect, but I don’t think that means it’s Inherently bad.

In the very first episode of Hope Ya Laugh About It, I’m talking about why I almost didn’t start, my fear of failing, and how often we wait to feel ready before giving ourselves permission to begin.

I also get into becoming a mom at 17, never quite fitting into the versions of life I thought I was supposed to, and why maybe living in the in-between doesn’t mean we’re lost, it might just mean, as corny as it sounds, that the journey really is the destination.

If you’ve ever felt behind, out of place, or afraid to let people see you trying, this one’s for you.