I spent the majority of my life chasing attention and validation from everyone else but myself. Doing so caused me lots of failures and lots of life lessons learned. This is my extremely strong opinion of what I went through. This does not mean that my opinion and experience is right and everyone else is wrong. This also doesnt mean that this is what happens every time. It may come across that I am voicing that my opinion is right but i just am very strong about what I felt and how it affected me and still affects me. Please enjoy my failure of being a fitness model or fitness influencer or whatever the hell I was trying to do!