I enjoyed recording this episode a lot.

It's been a really beautiful journey in learning and understanding more about me, why I am how I am, what I need to work on and communicating things when it feels tricky.

Learning to sit in uncomfortable situations and having them help me grow as a person vs defeat me, that's had quite a learning curve.

I'm working on truly believing I'm worthy of love, communication, respect, intimacy, but I will say this is the closest I've ever been to being the best version of me that I've ever been and that feels really good and I'm proud of myself, because I could have given up, but I keep flexing and growing because I choose ME and in doing that I'm able to show up in better ways for myself and those around me.

It's a weird feeling to feel lighter, lighter in the way of my soul, my soul feels lighter lately. I don't think I realized how taxing it was on me to be in survival mode all the time. I think a lot in visual representations in my head and I see things like; say you're in 4wheel drive and then you get onto the pavement and your still in 4wheel and your vehicle isn't happy about it and all you need to do is pull over take it out of 4wheel drive and backup a bit and then keep going forward.

So many times we feel like we've failed because we had to stop and go back a little and then keep on going.. the fact that we're still going, that's amazing. Life is pretty amazing and I feel a whole lot of gratitude for it. I keep waking up and that's pretty phenomenal.