David is said to be a man after God’s own heart. That’s quite a nickname. I look at the Psalms he wrote and I love how David pours his heart out to the Lord. He let the Lord speak through him. God used him mightily, but David was not perfect. We know about the big mistakes David made: adultery, murder- but did David ever get in a ‘funk’? I am sure he did, because we all do. David specifically talks about feeling a distance from the Lord:

“As a deer longs for streams of water, so I long for You, O God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before Him?" Psalm 42:1-2 NLT

If a man after God’s own heart can find himself feeling a distance from the Lord, then certainly we will at some point in our lives. The more crucial question is, “How do I get out of the funk, once I am here?”

I’m not here because I desire to be here. I am here because of my own action, or sometimes, inaction. It’s no one’s fault but my own. I haven’t carved out the time to spend with my Savior. I haven’t pursued Him. I have been complacent. I have placed the distance there myself.

I hate it. But how do I get out?

I’m thirsty and I don’t even realize it. I’m starving myself, but stupidly can’t figure out why or how. Do you do that? Find yourself feeling a distance from the Lord but don’t know why? Time after time, I end up here, even after vowing not to be.

Oh my flesh, you are my enemy. My selfish, selfish nature, you have won again. But just as the night came, so will the day. The cycle continues, the battle with my sin. The fight with distance.