A few months ago, I met with a friend for lunch at Habit burger after church. She excitedly told me that she had finally had a breakthrough with an issue that she had dealt with and that God was finally providing closure. I was excited for her but remembered my own issue: a lingering issue with fear.
Just a few nights before our lunch encounter, there was an altar call for those of us who had struggled with past pain affecting the present. I went up for prayer for this, cried out to God and he healed that past pain. I honestly couldn’t remember the things that hurt me from that situation.
Yet, when I saw the person who hurt me the next day, the need to self protect rose again. I put up my walls and ignored their presence.
“I just don’t feel safe. Being safe is so important to me; how can I trust a person that I do not feel safe with?”
She looked at me for a moment before answering. “That’s a lot to put on a person- feeling safe with them. It’s an impossible request to meet. Only God is your safety. No one on this earth can fulfill that. You may need to repent to God for this, for seeking safety in some other than Him.”
Bam! My eyes were opened. SAFE. That’s it! Not feeling safe was the root of my fear. If I didn’t feel safe, there were a lot of things that I would refuse to do outside of this situation.
This has been such a beautiful journey to take with the Lord and a journey that I am still walking. It was hard to admit that at times I do not feel safe with the Lord. But, had I not admitted it, I would still have this barrier between God and me. God will do anything to let us know how much he loves us and cares for us.
Although there I times I don’t feel it, it gives me comfort to know that his protection and love for us is splashed all over the pages of his word. God is, and will always be my safe place.
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