We’ve all been taught that pleasure is something you earn.. after the work is done, after the healing is complete, after you finally get it “right.”

But what if pleasure isn’t the reward at the end of the journey.. what if it’s actually the fuel for everything you desire?

In this episode of Dear Goddess, I’m sharing the unfiltered truth about pleasure, not as some fluffy luxury, but as medicine for your nervous system, a portal into your power, and the missing ingredient in creating a life that actually turns you on.

From my own reflections returning to one of the most transformational places in my healing journey, to the edges I’m leaning into while birthing The Pleasure Experiment, this conversation is a reclamation of aliveness, sensuality, and radiance.

Inside this episode, I share:
🔥 Why pleasure feels unsafe for so many women (and how to rewire your nervous system to actually receive it)
⚡ How survival mode and self-sabotage keep you addicted to struggle, even when you’re craving joy
🌹 What it really means to live a “turned-on” life, beyond sexuality and into your everyday radiance
💋 Why pleasure isn’t found in a man, a vacation, or a paycheck but rather it’s found in you
🌀 How to use pleasure as a portal into healing, shadow work, and deeper embodiment
✨ What to expect inside The Pleasure Experiment, a 30-day initiation into your most magnetic, alive, radiant self

This episode is for the woman who’s tired of going through the motions, living on autopilot, and outsourcing her joy, and is ready to reclaim pleasure as her natural state of being.

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We’ve all heard “you gotta feel it to heal it” but have you ever wondered WTF that actually means?

In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm getting brutally honest about what it actually means to "feel your feelings" beyond the Instagram wellness quotes and into the messy, transformative reality of emotional mastery.

Speaking from the trenches of my own emotional overwhelm (thanks, family dinner meltdowns), I'm breaking down why being more triggered doesn't mean you're less healed, how to stop thinking your emotions instead of feeling them, and what somatic healing actually looks like in practice.

Whether you're an empath drowning in emotions, someone who's been suppressing feelings for decades, or anywhere in between, this episode is your guide to developing true emotional sovereignty.

Inside this episode, I share:

🌊 Why being more triggered doesn't mean you're less healed (it actually means the opposite) 🎣 How to use triggers as opportunities for healing instead of reasons to feel broken 

🚫 The toxic positivity trap and why "good vibes only" is actually spiritual bypassing
⚡ Understanding emotions as energy that needs to move through you, not get stuck in you 

🧠 How self-awareness can actually cock block your healing (and what to do instead) 

💔 The empath experience: having a "genetic upgrade" to feel but zero instruction manual 

⚖️ Wounded feminine vs. wounded masculine patterns in emotional regulation 

🫖 Why you need nervous system capacity before diving into deep emotional work 

🧬 Why you don't actually "release" emotions 

This episode is for the woman who's tired of being a victim to her emotions and ready to develop true emotional mastery, the kind that allows you to feel it all without being destroyed by it.

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In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm getting real about the deep-rooted patterns of people-pleasing and "good girl conditioning" that live in our nervous system and how they show up even after we think we've healed them.

Drawing from my own experience of how family relationships can activate our oldest wounds, I'm diving into the messy, complicated reality of healing, where our biggest triggers become doorways to our deepest freedom when we meet them with curiosity instead of judgment.

Whether you're a recovering people-pleaser, struggling with good girl conditioning, or noticing old patterns resurface in challenging situations, this episode offers both understanding and practical tools for true liberation.

Inside this episode, I share:

🔄 Why we heal the same wounds over and over again (and why that's completely normal and necessary)

🧠 The difference between inner child and inner teen healing and why your sassy inner teen needs attention too

⚡ People-pleasing as a nervous system survival strategy not just wanting to be "nice"

🛡️ How the "fawn response" keeps us trapped in patterns of self-abandonment

📊 Why mindset work is only part of the healing equation and what the other 80% actually is

🔍 A real-time example of recognizing people-pleasing patterns (featuring a family barbecue story!)

🌊 The shame loop that keeps good girl conditioning alive and how to break free

💪 Practical steps for embodying authenticity without fear of disappointing others

✨ How ordinary moments become portals for profound healing and transformation

This episode is for the woman who is ready to stop managing everyone's perceptions of her and start living authentically even when (and especially when) it feels scary, messy, and imperfect.

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In this episode of Dear Goddess, I'm sharing the real, raw truth about navigating seasons of transition including specific tools and practices that actually work when you're feeling stuck, stagnant, or somewhere between worlds.

Speaking from my current reality of transitioning from my beloved Bali life to suburban Washington, I'm getting honest about how challenging these in-between seasons can be, and more importantly, what you can actually do about it.

Whether you're between jobs, relationships, locations, or life chapters, this episode is your roadmap for not just surviving but thriving through transition.

Inside this episode, I share:

🔄 Why transition seasons are so hard on your nervous system (and why that's completely normal) 

💪 Navigating fear and uncertainty on this journey of life

🚫 How to stop outsourcing your power to your environment 

⚡ Specific nervous system regulation rituals for when you're feeling dysregulated 

🌍 The importance of turning up your energetic hygiene during seasons of uncertainty and change

🎯 How to create micro-rituals and daily check-ins with your body 

✨ The importance of connecting with pleasure when life feels off and anything but pleasurable 

This episode is for the woman who is navigating seasons of change and uncertainty but choosing to invite in more grace and ease.

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In this episode of Dear Goddess, I take you inside one of the most unexpected and most profound spiritual experiences I’ve had: a conscious weed ceremony that turned into a quantum healing journey into pleasure, shame, and feminine embodiment.

We also explore the everyday moments that reveal how deeply shame and conditioning still live in our bodies, like witnessing a woman apologize for being “high maintenance” simply for asking for the coffee she ordered.

This episode is a love letter to the woman who’s done apologizing for taking up space, asking for what she wants, and living in devotion to her pleasure.

Inside this episode, I share:

🌿 How I intentionally used weed as a spiritual tool for the first time in 3 years

💓 The channeled messages I received from my pussy (yes, literally)

🔥 Why true healing isn’t about fixing but rather reclaiming pleasure

💘 Why pleasure is the antidote to shame and what’s actually required to embody that

🙅🏼‍♀️ What the phrase “high maintenance” reveals about internalized shame

💎 The deeper connection between shame, desire, and divine feminine power

This one’s for the woman who’s learning to listen to her body, honor her desires, and unapologetically choose herself over and over again.

Your pleasure is sacred.

You are not high maintenance. You are high frequency, and you don’t need to apologize for any of it.

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In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I bring you into one of the most tender and surreal chapters of my journey, my final days in Bali after calling this magical island home for the last two and a half years.

This isn’t just a goodbye.

It’s an exploration of presence, release, and the sacred grief of change when you know everything is about to shift.

In this episode, I share:
💔 Why “letting go” is one of the most misunderstood parts of the healing journey
🧘🏼‍♀️ What I’ve learned about presence through grief, endings, and unclenching timelines
📦 How even packing up your closet can become a spiritual practice (yes, really)
💫 Why most people don’t create space to receive, and how I’m choosing to do it differently
🔮 What I’m calling in next, and how I’m trusting it even when I don’t fully understand it yet

This one’s for the woman who knows she’s standing at a threshold, shedding identities, saying yes to the unknown, and ready to live in the frequency of her future self right now.

If you’ve been navigating your own endings, transitions, or identity rebirths then I hope this feels like a hug for your soul.

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In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I take you behind the scenes of one of the most unexpected spiritual experiences I’ve had recently: going to a nightclub in Bali completely sober to see Fred Again.. Live and how it cracked me wide open in all the ways I didn’t expect.

This isn’t just about the music.

It’s about embodiment, nervous system awareness, and choosing presence in a world that encourages disconnection.

In this episode, I share:
💗 Why I chose to stop drinking (and what that choice really represents)
🌬 What it’s like to be in your body in a space where everyone else is trying to escape theirs
🌊 The role of emotional sensitivity, sobriety, and spiritual devotion in my healing journey
⚡️ A candid reflection on projections, judgment, and the mirror of nightlife
💔 How my dad’s alcoholism shaped my own relationship with control, chaos, and choosing different

This one is for the woman who’s done with numbing her emotions, ready to meet herself more deeply, and curious about what real freedom and fun look like without the masks.

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In this week’s episode of Dear Goddess, I take you inside one of the most humbling and challenging experiences I’ve ever had in my recent ceremonies with Kambo and Bufo Alvarius and the deep integration that followed.

This isn’t a conversation about blissful awakenings.

This is the part of the healing journey most people don’t talk about, the spiral, the ego unraveling, and the sacred chaos of becoming.

Inside this episode, I share:

• What my second Bufo journey revealed (and how it blindsided me)
• Why your nervous system will fight even the healing you’ve been asking for
• The difference between thinking you’ve surrendered and actually surrendering
• What to do when your awakening feels more like a breakdown than a breakthrough
• How survival patterns can hijack even the most spiritual moments and how to anchor back in safety
• Why integration is the real ceremony and how it’s reshaping my work with women

This is for you if you’ve ever felt like you’re “doing healing wrong” or if your spiritual path has cracked you open in ways you didn’t expect.

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In this episode of Dear Goddess, I share a personal and tender truth: I’m leaving Bali, not because I want to, but because my intuition told me to.

This is one of the most emotionally raw conversations I’ve recorded. It’s about what it really looks like to trust your intuition when it doesn’t feel good, when it leads you into the unknown, and when it breaks your heart wide open.

We explore:

• What it feels like to follow your intuition into grief and uncertainty
• Why discomfort doesn’t always mean misalignment
• The difference between “not ready” and “not right”
• Letting go of a chapter that shaped you without making it mean something went wrong

This episode is for the woman standing at the edge of her next evolution, navigating endings, holding grief, and learning to trust herself even when it hurts.

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In this episode of Dear Goddess, I take you behind the scenes of a very real moment: standing on the side of the road in Bali, trying to figure out if I was honoring my intuition or just letting fear win.

This conversation is a deep dive into what it really means to trust yourself when the voice of your soul and your survival patterns start to sound the same.

We explore:

• What it means to honor your nervous system vs. push past it
• The messy middle between identities and timelines
• Surfing lessons that mirror life (yes, including the time I lost a contact in the ocean 😅)
• A powerful reframe on “stepping out of your comfort zone”
• Why discernment between intuition and ego isn't always the point, and what to focus on instead

You’ll also hear about:

• A spontaneous decision to walk out of a “cacao rave”
• My recent season of solitude, change, and creative ritual
• What it actually takes to expand your nervous system capacity without retraumatizing yourself

This episode is for the woman who’s been questioning herself, caught in spirals, trying to figure out the “right” next step and ready to stop analyzing and start trusting.

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