Yeah, don’t listen to this. Skip it. It didn’t make sense while I was saying it either. It was mouth noises to deal with overwhelming anxiety of doing something stressful and overwhelming and cope with a lot of other triggers and ongoing stressors against which I feel powerless. I go down a spiralling rabbit hole and give myself a good ol’ Chidi Anagonye fork-in-a-garbage-disposal stomachache & headache inducing pile o’ garbage. Time to kick dirt over this pile & move on.