Better than silence, and at least if I talk to myself I feel heard, and value and honour my desire and need to be heard. I have to be a friend to myself, and that means being there for myself when I need me, in whatever way I can with as little judgment as possible. I think selfishness is contagious, but selflessness is a trap for me. Both are traps, to be frank, but maybe by over correcting eventually I’ll find a happy medium. Or a sustainable one. Or die trying. But at this point I can’t stop or hold up or wait for someone to catch up. This is an express. Jump on or don’t but mind the fucking gap.