Delusional

"For me, personally, a mix has the most impact when it feels like I'm watching a movie. With ups, downs, some drama, sentiment, moment of joy, climax and anticlimax. And yes: tension and release." --- originally published on Ambientblog ---

When I started working on this mix, its working title was Wonderlust, simply because I liked that word: a variation on wanderlust ('a desire to travel') which the Urban Dictionary describes as 'the desire to be in a constant state of wonder'.But as the mix progressed, the title didn't fit very well. There were too many dark and unsettling moments... moment that may evoke their own 'state of wonder' but of a completely different kind. The Questions in Anja Garbarek's track are crucial to this mix and gave it its title: a few simple questions to diagnose severe psychotic disorders, a delusional state of mind. There may be quite a few of these delusional moments in this mix, but they are alternated with moments of joy in an almost melodramatical equilibrium.

More info on https://www.ambientblog.net/blog/2019-01/delusional-mix/

Tracklist:(first time is the start time, time in brackets is the sample length)

00:00 (01:13) Angelo Badalamenti/City Of Prague Orchestra - Mulholland Drive ThemeMulholland Drive soundtrack, 2001, Milan 74321 89823 200:59 (00:59) Allesio Ballerini - WiwananaWiwanana OST, 2018, Fluid Audio 05401:43 (01:49) Martin Ptak - StormRiver Tales, 2018, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 2044101:57 (00:32) Goblin - Suspiria (Celesta & Bells)Suspiria OST, 1977/2012, Cinevox CD OST 702/s02:30 (02:04) Jóhann Jóhannsson - Seeker Of The Serpents EyeMandy OST, 2018, Invada LSINV203CD03:11 (02:57) Monty Adkins - Still Juniper Snow: Distant WatersBozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD05:38 (01:08) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, Drabant Music, DM58LPPER05:52 (03:17) Gryllus Ábris - Post_02Post_, 2017, Farbwechsel FARB02608:01 (01:51) Autechre - Sinstrailab AirNTS Sessions 2, 2018, Warp Records WARPCD364 08:30 (02:31) Jessica Moss - Fractals (Truth 3)Entanglement, 2018, Constellation CST13810:09 (01:58) Rudolf Eb.er - IshikiriOm Kult: Ritual Practice Of Conscious Dying- Vol. II, 2018, Om Kult OM-210:27 (00:25) Anja Garbarek - QuestionsThe Road Is Just A Surface, 2018,11:05 (01:17) Ulnar - Daylight FireworksDreaming Of Sailing Further West, 2017, Colectivo Casa Amarela CCA00311:41 (02:42) Jean C. Roche - Rancho GrandeBirds Of Venezuela, 1973/2018, Sub Rosa SR411LP12:05 (03:08) Arve Henriksen - SanmyakuSakuteiki, 2001, Rune Grammofon RCD202114:12 (02:34) The Newton Brothers - Feel NothingThe Haunting Of Hill House OST, 2018, Wax Work Records16:23 (02:22) Thomas Vaquié - EcumeEcume, 2016, Antivj Recordings 18:31 (02:56) From The Mouth Of The Sun & Seabuckthorn - Lesser StillWe Stayed The Path That Fell To Shadow, 2018, Lost Tribe Sound21:21 (00:43) Maria W. Horn - AtropaKontrapoetik, 2018, XKatedral XK1221:44 (01:35) Bass Communion - Drugged IV Reconstructions And Recycling (Bass Communion Remixed), 2003, Headphone Dust BCCD522:30 (03:07) Alea Saxophone Quartet - Arvo Pärt: SolfeggioArvo Pärt Anima, 2017, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 2043724:52 (02:57) BJNilsen - Table Of HoursFocus Intensity Power, 2017, Moving Furniture Records MFR06226:40 (04:06) Illuminine - Dear, Utopia (feat. Adam Bryanbaum Wiltzie)#3, 2018, Ferryhouse Productions FHP 4261726:42 (01:27) Michael Fahres - Het Gesloten OgenblikGäbrik (music from the book by Marc Legendre), 2018, Vlaamse Onafhankelijke Stripgilde29:33 (02:20) Mathieu St. Pierre - 23.0785729, 143.9554413 These Elephants, 2018, Se;f-released (Bandcamp)30:46 (01:22) Janek Schaefer - To Row Against The TideWhat Light There Is Tells Us Nothing (For Robert Wyatt), 2018, Temporary Residence Limited TRR30531:53 (01:05) Mothertape - Problem 4In Prog