When I started working on this mix, its working title was Wonderlust, simply because I liked that word: a variation on wanderlust ('a desire to travel') which the Urban Dictionary describes as 'the desire to be in a constant state of wonder'.But as the mix progressed, the title didn't fit very well. There were too many dark and unsettling moments... moment that may evoke their own 'state of wonder' but of a completely different kind. The Questions in Anja Garbarek's track are crucial to this mix and gave it its title: a few simple questions to diagnose severe psychotic disorders, a delusional state of mind. There may be quite a few of these delusional moments in this mix, but they are alternated with moments of joy in an almost melodramatical equilibrium. For me, personally, a mix has the most impact when it feels like I'm watching a movie. With ups, downs, some drama, sentiment, moment of joy, climax and anticlimax. And yes: tension and release.So then, if this was a movie, the Jon Hopkins track would be the last scene, and the Metropole Orchestra (or  Metropool Orkest as they are named in Holland) version of Brian Eno's classic track 'An Ending' would be the track under the end credits rolling. End credits crediting no less than 45 fragments crammed together in a 59 minute soundscape compilation of music that was never conceived to be heard in a context like this.

This mix is premiered on Concertzender Nederland in Bob Rusche's 'X-Ray'  radio show on Sunday, January 6, 2019. Thanks, Bob! '

Tracklist:(first time is the start time, time in brackets is the sample length)