When I renew

Begin again

I walk down a new road

With the same old way stops

I try to choose

I try to change

All I seem to be doing

Is rearranging chaos

Scrub my neck

Cancel all my cheques

Sand down new decks

Tie up all the little loose ends

Rhyme off regrets

Like the alphabet

Make new promises

Grow new skin over the old flesh

Wherever I go

I take the same old steps

When the tide gets low

It drags in all the same mess

The demons know

When I'm in distress

Let their faces show

When I hate myself

Like this:

Every bad move

I recreate

I crawl back in through the grate

That I refuse to cover

Inside this tomb

I suffocate

I wallow in self hatred

While I slowly smother

Not going well

Still I'm undeterred

Have the room swept

Have the pressure and the fuel checked

Pull up my belt

Tie a tourniquet

Have some new cards dealt

Toast the launching of a new wreck