"Depression is your body saying, fuck you. I don't want to be this character anymore. I don't want to hold up this avatar you've created in the world. It's too much for me." ~Jim Carrey Everything was going great, I was on top of the world, ready to take on 2023... Then I saw her coming my way, I tried to hide so she couldn’t see me. I ducked, I pretended I didn’t see her, but nope. She spotted me with her petrifying gaze and under her spell I went. This past week I encountered my least favorite emotion, her name is DEPRESSION. She often accompanies me during the winter season of my menstrual cycle. Although I can usually expect her to arrive pretty consistently, sometimes she does’t come at all which then leads me to assume she’s gone for good. In this episode I'm sharing a sequence of recent events that triggered my inner critic which then led me in a direction that was quite enlightening.  Using my winter/ hibernation season for deep rest and introspection. I'll tell you what I uncovered this month. 

Ep. #151: Depression | DEEP REST from the Character You're Trying to Play

This podcast started out as a self help podcast for moms trying to find balance in motherhood and business but morphed into a documentation of Crystal and Sean Escobar's journey out of the Mormon church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints). The Podcast has been therapeutic on so many levels for its hosts. They vulnerably share their pitfalls and triumphs as they work to deconstruct a lifetime of indoctrination from the LDS church which they exited in the Spring of 2018. Sexual shame, marriage, parenting, science, spirituality, personal development, healing, sex abuse, are some of the topics they focus on.

At episode 100 they both decided they were done processing their experience in the church and shifted their focus on helping others heal and grow in all areas of life. Crystal became a Certified Life/ Mindset Coach in 2020 and now offers free education in personal development via her podcast.

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It’s been almost one year since I last recorded a podcast and since I stopped posting on social media. This wasn’t necessarily intentional by the way. My plan was to take the summer off from everything so I could focus a little more on other things for a while. 


But when September rolled around I found myself not wanting to come back to podcasting and social media, which was strange. I’d always been rearing to get back to work as soon as the kids went back to school. But this year was different. This was the first summer I didn’t post at all and I never once checked Facebook. It was like I got to go back in time, back before cell phones and social media. And I found it to be so incredibly refreshing. 


No more constantly worrying about taking pictures and videos for my next post. In fact, I didn’t really take any pictures and videos this year besides our vacation and holidays. It was so unlike me. I got to see what it was like to just live my life, going with the flow, having no big plans. Just simple and present. Something I haven’t felt in well over a decade. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve loved creating videos and podcasts over the years, but I just needed a nice long break, kinda like a sabbatical I guess. 



Ep #161: 1 Year No Social Media {Life Update}

     Seasons come, seasons go… switch things up and ride the flow.   Being consistent with what you’re doing in pursuit of your goals does not mean you do the same thing every day. You must learn how to align with the seasons & switch things up in order to experience FLOW. When each season comes to a close we tend to experience momentary boredom or even a bit of anxiety or depression. Feeling uninspired or unmotivated. When the energy of one season shifts to the next we may notice feelings of exhaustion or overwhelm if not in the habit of aligning with the seasons. This is the moment to go inward, avoid distracting yourself from this uncomfortable feeling. If you wait long enough you’ll become receptive to a new energy. A fresh new creative outlook will emerge. New ideas, new projects, new focus. During this transition stage it’s important to listen up to what your inner energy is gravitating towards. Is it time to let some things go? Set something aside for a SEASON? Is it time to shift your focus to more play and less work? More creating and less consuming? More rest and less rushing? There’s a time to work and a time to play. A time to rest, and a time to exert yourself. Spring is coming to a close and Summer is around the corner. Ask yourself, what needs to change as the seasons change?   For me, my entire calendar gets a make over. I’m shifting from content creation via my podcast, social media, and the MINDSET classes, to more home projects and kid focus.   Seasons are what keeps life so fun and interesting. Always something to look forward to. Embrace the ebbs to release the intelligent flow of life. Alignment means awareness of when to pivot, or when to let go. Right now I’m switching up my rituals and routines. Wrapping up Spring and gearing up for Summer. From producing to reducing. Less work, more fun. Less online time to more outside time. Contemplation and plant propagation. Decluttering and Gardening Workouts and writing… What’s your focus going to be this summer? P.S. I have room to take on a few more clients if you've been needing help with managing your time, or managing your emotions. I'm here for yah! Schedule an appointment now before my summer slots fill up. https://calendly.com/crystalescobar/1-hour-coaching-session 

Ep #160: Season's Ending, New Beginnings, & Letting Go

     Let’s take a look at your symptoms, physical AND mental. Do you have any pain in your body? Extra weight? Skin conditions, thinning hair?   Are you dealing with any anxiety or depression?    What ever the symptom is, there is always a root cause and that’s what I hope tonights class can help you identify.   With my rash I explored all potential causes. Through deep introspection and researching breast implant illness, I was able to narrow it down.   When I began reading about breast implant illness and discovered countless stories of other women experiencing the same symptoms as me, I was convinced that my next step towards better health should be to remove my implants.   I also made sure to look at my mental and emotional health during this time. I even went back and read some of my journal entries leading up to the rash outbreak.   I noticed a theme in my writings. RESENTMENT. I was carrying a lot of resentment in my body, thinking I was processing it by writing it out. But writing alone is not always enough. Sometimes you need to SAY something rather than hold it in. Sometimes it’s necessary to voice how you’re feeling, what you’re upset about, set some boundaries and make some changes. {Want access to my FREE Journal Prompts and Work Books? Sign up HERE to assist you in your goal for increased self awareness through daily writing and monthly challenges.} If you’re interested in booking a FREE Mini Session then use my calendar link to schedule with me. (New Clients Only) MY CALENDARhttps://calendly.com/crystalescobar/30-min-free-mini-session  

Ep #159: HEALING | Mind, Body, & Soul

       Not gonna lie, seeing my smaller chest for the first time was emotional. I broke down in tears, but quickly shifted back to acceptance. Now I see them as an elegant beauty rather than hot sexy. Both versions are awesome, so I'm choosing to embrace my new look. Focusing on what was gained rather than what was lost. They don’t look perfect, but even without the implants, I’m not going to be able to stop the process aging. Letting go of resistance I have to my body changing with time, and the belief that I reached my peak of beauty. Redefining what beauty means to me. Getting it out of my head that youth is the only kind of beauty. I started paying more attention to the beauty of deep wisdom that only comes with AGE. The lines and wrinkles represent experience and a life LIVED. Seeing less and less of my external beauty and more and more of my internal beauty. Seems cliche to say that, but like in the movie, I feel Pretty, when you FEEL pretty, that’s all you really need in order to be happy and content. We feel pretty by how we think and what we believe.  {Want access to my FREE Journal Prompts and Work Books? Sign up  HERE to assist you in your goal for increased self awareness through daily writing and monthly challenges.}\ If you’re interested in booking a FREE Mini Session then use my calendar link to schedule with me. (New Clients Only) MY CALENDARhttps://calendly.com/crystalescobar/30-min-free-mini-session  

Ep #158: Lose Yourself | Post Explant Surgery Mindset

     One of my specialties is organizing. It’s something I’m naturally good at, but also something I often promote because of the incredible benefits it can have on the brain.    Having things neat and orderly is extremely important to me. My kids don’t always love it though. I try to impress upon them the benefits of a clean room and a made up bed, but they just think I’m a bit of a perfectionist.    I tried for years to get my oldest to make her bed each day and she’d always say, why, nobody is going to see it. I’d be so offended that she actually thought I wanted her to make her bed for OTHER people. I wanted her to make her bed for me, haha, but I was also hoping she’d experience the same sense of satisfaction I get when I walk by her room and see it all neat and tidy. It has everything to do with me, haha.    I recognized early on in my life the positive affects a clean and organized space had on my brain so it’s something that has always been a priority for me. There’s nothing better than coming down to a clean kitchen first thing in the morning, or climbing into my neatly made up bed at night.    I do it for my brain.    I used to think it was just a personality thing. I know messes don’t bother everyone, but I’ve come to learn that clutter and disorganization can have plenty of negative affects on all people, it’s not just me. Some may not even realize the stress, overwhelm, and fatigue they often feel, could be directly related to chaos and clutter. It’s not just a personality type thing, it’s a human thing.    {Want access to my FREE Journal Prompts and Work Books? Sign up  HERE to assist you in your goal for increased self awareness through daily writing and monthly challenges.}\   If you’re interested in booking a FREE Mini Session then use my calendar link to schedule with me. (New Clients Only)   MY CALENDARhttps://calendly.com/crystalescobar/30-min-free-mini-session    

Ep. #151: Depression | DEEP REST from the Character You're Trying to Play

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