SEASON 2, EPISODE 4: DEPRESSION

This episode is my experience of depression. It is not as dramatic or as extreme as other accounts of depression you may have heard, but I think “moderate” depression doesn’t get enough attention.

I revisit a journal entry I wrote in June 2014. I was hiding in the basement at work in the middle of the day, trying to figure out if I was depressed.

I reflect on that empty/numb feeling I got after submitting a paper, knowing academia wasn’t for me, whether seeking solitude is a good thing or not, the definition of “enough”, how “noisy” my experience of depression is, the importance of communication skills, the cyclical nature of depression, and my analytical approach.

Timestamps:

[00:00] Intro

[04:00] Journal entry

[10:04] Submitting a paper just made me feel empty and numb

[12:00] I knew academia wasn’t for me

[13:37] Seeking solitude

[15:57] Trying hard, but being told that it is not good enough

[19:40] My experience of depression is noisy!

[21:02] I didn’t have the communication skills to talk to anyone about my feelings

[22:24] Depression is like a cycle

[23:58] My analytical approach

[26:24] Outro

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