Envy

Enmity

Nurturing

Vain

Yearnings

* Desire For Hire *

Lust longing

Envy calling

Encompassing

Craving the fix

That will relieve it

The feeling sickened within

No matter what

Let's do it again and again

And again and again

Until the end

Destroying myself

Instead of accepting the help

Knocking at the door

Here we go once more

Chaos calling

Craving attention

This roller coaster ride

On to getting high

The magnetic field reeling me in

Investing in sin

Withering within

Diminishing my grin

Creating the hell, I'm now living in

Goodbye

Until next time

Off to the sky

Mesmerized by the monetary

My thoughts can be quite scary

This creature

Faking these features

Substance to smile

Only for a little while

Beaten to break

Destroying my fate

Contempt prior to investigation

Unable to establish relation

Labeled from my mind's creation

Generally educated

Beating out the imagination

Illogical interpretation

Corrupt configuration

Contortion conformant

Doleful dormant

Becoming a doormat

Trampled under foot

From dust to dust

Can I just give up?

I can't

I don't want to

There's pieces of me

That don't want to leave

Demons shall flee

As I continue to believe

Let me be!

Be still!

Silence the suffering

I've had enough of me

Meet me in the middle

Ripping out the root

So obtuse

Hitting the nerve

To swerve

Off course

Of course,

Causing a reflective action

 Blinded by the light

Surgery for new sight

Adding color to life

Seeing the details of the strife

Navigating

No negotiating

Articulating what's darkening

Starting to shed some light

Ignite the night

Maneuvering through

Thoroughly

Reprimanding

Directing to discipline

As I continually expound upon

This journey within