In this reflection I consider my destructive past as related to my creative future. 

Supporting themes: Thermodynamics; Life and death; Writing; Emotional maturity; Spiritual calling; Public and private treatments; Beyoncé as a role model of the intense Enneagram 8; Religion as a trap; Hell as a construct; Reconciling the grief I have with my person's death (just a little).

Special note 1: I surprisingly do a lot of crying (not all related to sadness).

Special note 2: I have posted links and additional reflections related to this reflection on my website: yournidom.WordPress.com. 

Typology: Enneagram 8; INTJ; Ni; Fi.