it is determinance,

an unshakable, infallible

certainty of occurrence—

that it not only has been decided

but that in deciding it has been determined

that it would be, and not only would it be

but it be, has been, and always has it been.

All there is left to be is its experience,

yet its experience requires your determinance.

You ask about the sportsman

who trains, who competes,

who rivals their adversaries.

“Who is the one to win

over the other when the other

can also be the one who won?

Is winning happenstance

or circumstance?”

It, it-it-it,

it is an illusion.

It is unreal and unseen.

It is unknown until known.

You stand there on

the field of competitors and

you take up your arms,

you dual,

you strike,

you are dealt blows,

you whinny with the horses and

grimace with the pain, but

as much as the sport is a game

with its set trials and set times,

you set your place and ready your mark

no different than the projectionist

loading the next canister of film,

rolling the reels of which were directed

without you. This is how it is for exactly

as long as it is.

We run, we lose, we eddy down

into the currents of mundanity

with no set direction but the wind,

until we ship our rudder, till

the chord of our life is struck,

the heart is sound and

the plane of our undetermined infinitude

involutes into the tunnel of our determinance.

From our aimlessness draws forth

a fixity of mind, cannon fodder,

shooting us down the barrel of

our dogged certainty that grows

in its own determinance as the chute

closes in towards the singularity of truth,

the truth that determinance

is the plow of God that

when readied can open any heart

for the harvest of our dreams.

But drive we must to spur these oxen.

Furrow our brows and our fields

that our tarheels not retreat

into complacent sand.

Instead, roil every ember

in the firebox of your soul

that your determinance

be found, be felt, be realized.

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