In this solo episode, I reflect on the last few weeks of A Climber’s Mind - including why there’s been a short break from the podcast, what I took from my recent conversation with Conrad Caddy, and how my North Wales trip made me think more deeply about determination, grades, pressure and priorities.

The episode starts with an honest update on why the podcast had to take a back seat for a couple of weeks. Between a climbing trip and some personal life stresses, I needed to make space for the things that had to come first - which, in many ways, connects directly to the themes of this episode.

I then look back on my conversation with Conrad Caddy, who climbed 8B within around three years of climbing. That conversation made me reflect on my own early years, because I also reached 8B within roughly my first three years. More than the grade itself, what interested me was the mindset underneath it: determination, obsession, pressure, identity, and what actually drives someone to keep showing up for something difficult.

From there, I explore the question: why do some people seem to have huge determination, while others don’t? I don’t think determination is just discipline or talent. I think it’s built from meaning, belief, feedback, identity, emotional tolerance and life circumstances. It can come from love, curiosity and purpose - but it can also come from insecurity, comparison and the need to prove yourself.

I also talk about my relationship with grades, which has been both motivating and volatile. Grades can be a brilliant tool for measuring progress, choosing challenges and focusing ambition - but they can become dangerous when they turn into measures of self-worth. My current view is that grades are useful servants, but terrible masters.

The episode also includes reflections from my recent trip to North Wales, where I climbed Prisoners of the Sun at Rhoscolyn. That experience made me think about hard trad climbing, clear decision-making, and how the best headspace on serious routes is often quiet rather than dramatic. For me, the lesson was about separating commitment from attachment: still caring deeply, but trying not to lose myself every time the outcome is uncertain.

Finally, I look ahead to a potential upcoming conversation with Steve McClure. If confirmed, I’m incredibly excited to speak to Steve about projecting, Rainman, Rainshadow, long-term motivation, and what draws someone to invest so much into one piece of rock over so many years.

This episode is really about one central question:

What makes us keep choosing hard things?

Determination is powerful, but it needs direction. Grades are useful, but they need perspective. Ambition is valuable, but it has to sit inside a life that can actually support it.