You are an instrument in an orchestra. Your joy is in allowing yourself to be played. When you feel any disquiet, the cause is trying to act out of accord, trying to act as a separate one. A separate one you are not. When you are trying to act out of accord, you are attempting what cannot be done--what has never actually been done. In an illusion, yes, you believe that there are separate ones who have actually acted in discord, but this is not possible. That is why we call this experience an illusion. You witness to that which is not possible, and you feel discord because it is not possible.

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