An Active relationship with God is a struggle. One can believe that they are a Christian or living in obedience only because they are outwardly expressing Christian love or displaying some Christian practices yet Acts of Charity isn't the same as talking to the lord.  we aren't Christians because of any acts on our behalf. You're Missing the point! Christianity has never been about checking boxes. What's weighing you Down in your Talk with Jesus? What's getting in your way of having an honest conversation with your savior? I believe it's time you cut ties with certain practices and become honest with the Lord.