I guess I didn't really get to what had become a major point during this: the contradiction is, I'm still stressing as much while in the middle of the process I'm undertaking at the time, I don't stress (as much, anymore) while considering what I should be doing with my time, and why I'm not doing that (yet), or how to fix it (the not doing it yet), or how much exertion it will require, or what will it be like if I try and fail.
Here's a YouTube search for Art & Fear. It was, for me, very enlightening.