#14 NEVER NOT TRYING

This is Donna-Michelle St. Bernard with my fourteenth and final thought.

I am trying my best. I have grown so much and changed not at all. There is a small part of me that is untouched by injustice and cynicism. A part of me still open to criticism. There is still a portion not smudged with distortion. A part undiscouraged by not-yet-but-nearly. That prays just in case God hears me. There is still some unreasonable faith that people of purpose can drive out the snakes. That people can be their best selves if they choose it. That there is healing in music.

That the world is sick

That loneliness afflicts.

That we're in the same ship.

And it's a all-of-us fix

That it's not on me.

That what I do matters but it's not all on me. It never was.

We are many. We are ready. We are strong.

I am a part of something I could not do alone.

And my whole entire job is the same as it always was: to try my best.

So I am trying my best. Bear with me.