Are you actually receiving what comes in or are you adjusting? Get the whole picture as it shows up. Watch very closely. Don’t jump ahead analysis, presumptions, anticipations, elaborations or screenplays. You can occupy yourself with all kinds of things as your life slowly goes back into the elements. It’s called impermanence and the fruition of that is, of course, death. It is not pessimistic it is just true.
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