Look, a couple months ago I let go of all my dreams, as they took up too much space in my life. They were occupying God's space in life. I was hyperfocused on chasing them to a point where I idolised them. Then, when I started university, I looked back at the things I had achieved and realised none of my achievements filled me the way I thought they would when I first started chasing after them. I reached a point in which I just didn’t know what my purpose was.

You see, I knew God had put me in all those positions, but once I got there, I got so carried away with wanting to perform and reaching new heights that I forgot why I was there. Feeling really empty one day after Uni, I went on my knees and cried to God to reveal my purpose to me because I didn’t just want to archive for the sake of archiving.

I refused to believe that there was no greater meaning to blessings in my life. The Lord answered my prayer and asked me to surrender my dreams, talent, and passions to him and just focus on my real purpose, which is to serve him.

It was really hard to let go of my dreams because for years and years they had formed the core of my identity. But eventually I did let go and felt the most whole I have ever felt in my life. That I unsuccessfully tried to fill with my dreams was a God-sized whole, which only he could fill. And once I let him in, he filled me with his peace, love, and joy, to a point on which, regardless of having achieved something or not, I am the happiest I have ever been. This is all because the Lord revealed to me that neither my success nor my failures can add or take from who I am, because what I am is loved by him, and that will regardless of success or failure remain. 

One would maybe think that as a consequence of this I have achieved less, but the opposite is the case since I let go and let God, and my life has been overflowing with blessings in all areas. I passed all my exams in peace. Yes, I studied hard, but it didn’t feel hard because I let go and let God and did not study like my life depended on it, because it doesn’t. Knowing this gave me so much peace to a point where I could even study even more because I knew God was with me in it and helping me carry the load. 

And even when it comes to my ambition to revolutionise politics, the vision has never been this clear. In the past, I used to focus all my thought on how I could achieve that goal and spent hours and hours just researching but not really finding answers. But now that I spend most of my time praying, my mind has been overflowing with great ideas that the Lord gives me during prayer. 

This reminds me of when Jesus said, "If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it." ( Matthew 16:25)

I held to my dreams and idolised them and almost lost them and myself in them, but once I let go and let God, I agained much more than the dreams I thought I had lost; I gained identity in him and, above all things, peace that surpasses all understanding.

My appeal to you is that there should not be a thing in your life that you hold on to so much that you won’t let go of it for God. He is the one who gave you that dream, and he is the one who will make it happen. Stop trying to do it yourself. You can’t; he can. Let go and let God.

Amen