"Do What Gives You Energy"

Hey everyone, I AM BACK!!! - after a whole year!

So much has changed. After graduation last year, I moved to Ningbo and started my first job. I switched companies twice in less than a year - went from being super excited about this new chapter to... completely hating working life.

Here's the thing: work made me numb. I stopped looking forward to anything, even things I used to love. That's when I knew something was wrong.

Finally, I admitted it to myself: I don't like working a 9-to-5.

I realized I only started this life to make my family happy - so they wouldn't think I was being lazy after graduation. And honestly? Society expects this too. They don't want you to think for yourself - they just want you to be another cog in the machine.

But this isn't the life I want.

Until age 22, I was used to handing myself over completely - first to teachers, then to bosses. It's actually pretty lazy when you think about it - letting others tell you what to do instead of figuring it out yourself.

The scary part? I actually liked it at first. It let me avoid asking the hard question: "What do I really want?" Work is like this massive obedience test that society created - and anyone with self-awareness eventually realizes it's soul-crushing.

These past two months back in Yunnan, my hometown, I’ve been rediscovering myself. Reading books that actually excite me (no reading lists!), trusting my intuitions more, overthinking less.

Here's what I’ve  learned: When you're doing what you truly want, you don't get tired. In fact, you gain energy.

Like today - I was feeding my cat when it hit me: "My podcast! I haven't updated in a year!" Suddenly I just HAD to record all these thoughts. I felt this rush of energy - a craving I hadn't felt in so long. And I'd already had a long day, but when I think about it, thinking about making new episode for my Podcast, I don’t feel any tired at all. However, this wasn't about followers or views - I just feel like I needed to do it.

That feeling? That's your intuition. And if you follow it consistently, it'll lead you exactly where you need to be.

So if you haven't felt truly happy in a while - stop. Just pause. Find what makes your heart race. Maybe it's dinner with family. Maybe it's reading a book. Maybe it's writing in a journal.

Start listening to that voice - it's your soul speaking.

And here, I wanna give a huge shoutout to my amazing friends – they kept asking when I'd update, and after I released those first two episodes, their encouragement fueled me to keep creating!"