In this episode, I'm talking about dating after losing Alex. The weirdness, the guilt, the laughter, the fear of what people might think, and what it means to let someone new into a life that already carries so much history.

I come with a child, a dead husband, a grieving heart, a million memories, an entire family and a podcast... but Tommy doesn't see any of this as baggage. He sees it as a bonus.

Because loving someone new doesn't mean loving someone who died any less ☕️🖤

Friday would have been mine and Alex's 5th wedding anniversary, my second without him.

In this episode I talk about navigating an anniversary when the person you're supposed to celebrate with is no longer here. From waking up after a dream where Alex had apparently found a way to annoy me, to Oscar reminding me that the roof was in the way when I tried to wish Daddy a happy anniversary.

Somewhere between the laughter and tears, I was reminded that grief and happiness don't cancel each other out. You can be incredibly grateful for the life you have and still desperately miss the person who should be there. You can celebrate love while mourning loss. And you can have the best night out you've had in ages. ☕️🖤

This week I'm talking about the different ways I've chosen to honour my late husband Alex and keep his memory alive. 

From changing Oscar's middle name, getting a new tattoo, and sitting in his favourite seat at the rugby. But this episode also made me think about the quieter ways grief can change us. After helping an elderly man with dementia find his way home this week, I found myself wondering whether honouring someone is sometimes less about remembering them and more about allowing their love and their impact to influence the way we live.

Because when someone dies, you're left with all this love and nowhere obvious to put it.

This episode is about love, memory, grief and finding the many different ways we can keep the people we've lost with us. ☕️🖤

A simple question from a stranger at a music festival got me thinking about one word I once couldn't even bring myself to say: died.

In this episode, I share why I've stopped whispering that word, how talking openly about death has helped both me and my son, and why I never want him to feel like his Daddy's story is something to hide.

This episode is about owning your story, raising children who aren't afraid to talk about death, and finding comfort in the things we can never truly understand ☕️🖤

For almost two years, I've avoided answering one question: How did Alex die?

This week, after a long awaited inquest, I finally have the answers. 

This isn't just a story about loss, it's about trusting your instincts, fighting for the people you love, and finding peace in finally knowing.

If you've ever lived in the uncertainty of grief or searched for answers after losing someone, I hope this episode reminds you that you are not alone ☕️🖤

This week, I'm sharing what it was like returning to Finland for the second summer without Alex.

Finland was more than a holiday destination. It was part of who he was, and a place he dreamed of sharing with Oscar. Returning this year brought tears, laughter, memories, and a reminder that while grief never disappears, it can change over time.

I reflect on carrying on the traditions Alex loved, the emotional moment Oscar received his Finnish passport, and why healing isn't about leaving someone behind. It's about finding new ways to carry them with us 🇫🇮☕️🖤

Episode 25 is here ❤️

This week I went back to the place where Alex proposed 7 years ago to the day. 

What started as a surfing pilgrimage, ended up becoming one of the most emotional trips I've taken since losing Alex.

I talk about revisiting the place where our future began, the kindness of complete strangers, and an 82 year old surfer that reminded me life doesn't stop, and the 86,400 seconds we are given each day.

Pop the kettle on, grab your coffee and join me in the Early Mourning Coffee Club ☕️🖤

When we think about grief we think about heartbreak. We don't think about the financial reality that comes with it.

In this episode I share the hidden costs of widowhood, from managing household bills alone, to navigating life insurance.

As my Bereavement Support Payment comes to an end this month, I also discuss the support currently available to bereaved families in the UK, why many believe it falls short, and the campaign calling for change.

https://www.gov.uk/bereavement-support-payment

https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/752501

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Grief counselling won't fix your grief. It won't take away the loss. It won't make you stop missing them. 

But what it can do is help you carry what feels impossible to carry alone. 

This week I'm talking about therapy, guilt, anger, healing, and why asking for help is one of the bravest things you can do ☕️🖤

This week's podcast episode is about Father's Day, grief, parenting after loss and the poem I wrote for Oscar on Father's Day last year.

We talk about remembering Alex, the male role models helping to shape Oscar's life, and the question that sits quietly underneath it all:

Will it be enough?

A conversation about love, loss, family and all the ways people continue to show up long after the worst day has passed. ☕️🖤