What I mean is, I allowed ego to live lazy, function lazy and I came to an inner dialog that was productive, self supportive, and very truthful, with in me from a result of a work consequence. Because, after all, the relationship, is all with in me. I had a heart talk with consciousness, ego, higher being. It all was from and to a place to help, self-invest, self-advance, reflection at a high level. If you're curious give a listen. Inner talk, inner dialog go on with every person, you just are noy aware of all the voices, because you've been taught it's crazy to talk to self in this way. I'm teaching me, Self taught and it takes talking to self just like this. You do this with an outside person why not yourself. Or why not have both methods, talk to positive outside people and the positive inside person inside you