Once I began to sense that this presence was already there—and already responding—something in me started to lean toward it.

Not out of effort. But out of recognition.

At first, it was inconsistent. I would feel it… respond to it… and then lose it again—pulled back into the same reactions, the same urgency to fix what I was feeling.

But something had changed.

Even when I lost it, I knew there was somewhere I could return to—not a place, but a way of relating.

In this episode, I explore what happened as I began returning to that connection again and again… and how, over time, it became something I could stay with—not just in difficult moments, but in the ordinary ones too.