One of the things that has been pried from the grips of my poor ego through the processes of alchemy and spiritual maturing is the idea that I could crack the code. That I could somehow figure out how to save myself from the perils of life. That somehow, my righteousness, my chosenness and my wisdom set me apart from the rest of humanity, and I wouldn’t have to suffer in the ways other humans suffer. 

The idea that being “good” and doing the right things was somehow related to my level of suffering was deeply, deeply embedded in me. But honestly, what a fucked up idea.

Exploring in this episode:

• Deprogramming the idea that we can be saved from suffering if we do the right things
• The soul cannot be healed and discovered solely through healthy living 
• The role that danger, the abyss, the edge, and the nothingness have in awakening the soul
• Coming to the place where nothing saves you and how important this place is to magical alignment and magical will 
• How there is no Philosopher's Stone, no creating with magical will without giving up every notion of what we think it might mean to do so 

At  10:46  I do a reading of my piece "When Nothing Saves You" with impromptu piano music in the background. It just felt right. 

With love from one magical abyss to another,

McCall

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