"Perfectionism is the attempted tyranny of a concept over the messy reality of embodied living." -Anthony Lawlor

In this episode I explore the progression of perfectionism in my alchemical journey

1. First as a way to survive and cope with trauma. 
2. Then as a way to buffer me from the raw experience of life and perhaps try to control how other people saw me so I could ensure their approval and love. 
3. Next as a tension to constantly transmute in order to keep me in creative flow with my soul.

I get real about how making this podcast has challenged me to face and transmute my perfectionism in ways I couldn't do ten years ago when I tried to record my music.

At the end, I announce some new projects that I'm currently working on.

With love from the deep end of messy and embodied living,

McCall

Quick quotes from the show:

What is real, precious, and truly golden inside me does not give a shit about my perfectionism.

Thinking there’s a right way to do anything and someone other than you knows what that is and you should give all your time and energy to figure it out can really fuck over your soul. Trusting your own direct, non-conceptual experience, not as the right way, but as the way that’s flowing, as the way that's happening for now will save your soul.

"Perfectionism is the attempted tyranny of a concept over the messy reality of embodied living." -Anthony Lawlor

"You lose your grip and then you slip into the masterpiece." Leonard Cohen , A Thousand Kisses Deep

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