This week, a special episode for those who feel as I do: the immense anger, grief, and disbelief that comes with witnessing state-sanctioned murder. I understand the horror we all felt watching the killing of Alex Pretti. But what continues to haunt me is the lie that followed.

I watched footage from several angles, searching for evidence that Pretti moved toward his handgun or threatened the officers. That evidence doesn't exist. Multiple news organizations have verified the same recordings. Yet the response from power was immediate gaslighting: calling observers agitators, recasting motives, reshaping reality before our eyes.

The psychological toll is compounded. First, the state kills a person. Then it kills the truth.

I think many of us are grieving two losses today: the American citizens who have been murdered, and the world we thought we lived in. What do we do with that level of emotion? With the chaos? With the disturbing feeling that nothing we do matters?

Diane Hamilton, a trusted confidante, a meditator, a mediator, and author joins Beyond Well to managing difficult emotions during troubling times.