In this episode, I take an honest look at how I’ve used both porn and women as a way to avoid my emotions and find temporary relief. I explore the somatic experience of watching porn—how its predictability creates a sense of safety and belonging, yet reinforces patterns of isolation and dissociation.

Through an embodiment practice, I tune into my body before, during, and after watching porn, uncovering the sensations and unmet needs beneath the habit. I also examine how these same patterns show up in my relationships, where I’ve sought comfort instead of true connection.