"I need the strength to make it through it, and to make something of myself" was the sentence that jumped out to me on the prayer request that had been forward to me.  It is what you need.  The strength to make it through - and then a way to make something of yourself.  A way to make the emotional journey MEAN something.  A way to contribute - a way to do work in the world that actually feels fulfilling.  That is what widow coaching is all about.  email:  [email protected]    Find out more about Widow Coaches Certification Class at http://widowcoaches.com