The last 2 years have shown me that.....I've had a wasted life, I'm 46, I got more life beyond me then ahead of me. I couldn't even cut my hair in fear it would never return, I've seen high school friends that got families and great jobs......then there's me, a depressed old man that hates his life like it has become.....and there is no way to change any of it.....it's enough to make me cry. anchor.fm/bhp20/[email protected].