Hi everyone!   I decided to post a solo episode this week and, to be honest, I'm a little nervous about it going live.  With a family trip to Greece on the horizon, I’ve had a lot on my mind and been quite nervous about returning to a place with so many memories.  To some of you this may seem strange, and I recognize the privilege in having anxiety about traveling to one of the most beautiful countries on this planet.  However, as I've touched on in a few of my previous episodes, my most recent trip to Greece marked the depths of my mental health crisis.  In an effort to help process some of the grief I still hold onto, I decided to share some of the reasons I am nervous about returning to a country that once brought me so much joy.  So here's my story.  

CW: I disclose many intricate details of my eating disorder in this episode, so feel free to pause or stop the podcast if this content is triggering to you.  If you are currently struggling with an eating disorder or any other anxiety-based illness, please don't hesitate to get help from one of the following resources: 

NAMI: 1-800-950-NAMI

NEDA: 1-800-931-2237

Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741

If you relate to my struggle at all, please don't be afraid to message me.  I don't have any clinical expertise on this topic, but I can certainly relate to what you're going through.  Much love 🤍