hello hello. 

welcome back to my podcast where I present myself to you all and come out of my "whale mode" and today is the day. The day where I talk about what "whale mode" means to me is finally here. 

this is a very personal episode. i'm talking about the origin stories of a deeply personal lesson for me in self-recognition. you could liken it to step 5 of the AA/NA handbook in which i say fuck you to fear and step into the unknown of (over?)sharing on the internet. 

i'm talking bipolar disorder, its mania and depression. i'm talking going outside and seeing wild nature behavior which happens all of the time but i'm seeing with virgin eyes. i'm talking how beautifully related we are to other animals other than size. 

thank you for being here and for listening. i cannot express in words (not yet anyway) how very grateful i am to still be here too. 

(p.s. please keep praying for me if that's something you do for i am still sick but i have a sneaking suspicion that it's due to an unlearned lesson about being born in the late 90s hustle culture that has unsustainably developed even in long Covid and connecting my worth to how much i work. i'm working on it. maybe i'll make an episode about it.)

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