hello hellooo. welcome to Presenting...Genesis where I present myself to you all and come out of my "whale mode" (or go further into it. who knows anymore.)

i feel like it's really easy to come on the podcast and give advice and things to remember and anecdotes and what not and pretend like I have my shit together and that I know what I'm doing and that I'm in control. I am not. And this is me being very (too?) transparent about that fact. 

i'm being vulnerable here and talking about how really one of things I excel at is making mistakes. I make them every day. whether they're innocuous errors or grievous lapses in judgement, i never know if and/or how they're going to affect me longterm. but there is ALWAYS a lesson to be learned from those mistakes. at least i think so. 

i talk about drugs and NA/AA and Step 5 and eating disorders and family drama and almost car accidents and art and stealing and hard truths. if any of those things are something you cannot handle, then leave. take care of yourself. it's not offending me. come back to this when or if! you can. 

thank you for being here!! i'm so grateful to be here too ☆

For help on body dysmorphia and eating disorders for you or that friend you have (that might actually be you. i've been that friend for myself plenty of times) - 

7 Ways to Help Someone With Body Dysmorphia

National Eating Disorders Assoc. (NEDA) Helpline

NA/AA 12 Steps - if you don't do steps, i recommend that you look them over. they are amazing self-awareness and necessary betterment practices for addicts of all kinds. They are consecutive and in that order for a reason. You don't have to "reinvent the wheel". (Thanks Bob!!) And this site has a number you can call to talk to specialists for free. 

Step 5 (the topic that inspired this podcast) 

The Killers - Hot Fuss (if you haven't heard it. i do NOT recommend listening while driving if you are one to get riled up by fun music as i am)