Content warning: domestic violence, emotional abuse, and identity repression.This episode dismantles the lie that awareness prevents abuse. In I Was Self-Aware and Still Violent, I was self-aware while choosing control—using silence, blame, and distortion in real time. Insight didn’t stop me; it helped me rationalize. Awareness isn’t accountability, and explanation isn’t repair.

Content warning: domestic violence, emotional abuse, and identity repression. This episode dismantles the lie that awareness prevents abuse. In I Was Self-Aware and Still Violent, I was self-aware while choosing control—using silence, blame, and distortion in real time. Insight didn’t stop me; it helped me rationalize. Awareness isn’t accountability, and explanation isn’t repair.

Episode 17: I Was Self-Aware and Still Violent

Man Enough sounds like a podcast about growth, strength, and becoming better, but it isn’t. This series is a confession told from the moment harm can no longer be denied. Each episode walks backward through domestic violence, emotional abuse, gaslighting, coercive control, masculinity, sexual repression as a gay man, and fear, tracing how harm formed, hardened, and persisted until it reaches the first day harm became possible. This is not a redemption story, so don&#39;t expect to find inspiration, healing arcs, or closure. But if you’re looking for honesty without absolution, start here.

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Man Enough sounds like a podcast about growth, strength, and becoming better, but it isn’t. This series is a confession told from the moment harm can no longer be denied. Each episode walks backward through domestic violence, emotional abuse, gaslighting, coercive control, masculinity, sexual repression as a gay man, and fear, tracing how harm formed, hardened, and persisted until it reaches the first day harm became possible. This is not a redemption story, so don't expect to find inspiration, healing arcs, or closure. But if you’re looking for honesty without absolution, start here.

Man Enough sounds like a podcast about growth, strength, and becoming better, but it isn’t. This series is a confession told from the moment harm can no longer be denied. Each episode walks backward through domestic violence, emotional abuse, gaslighting, coercive control, masculinity, sexual repression as a gay man, and fear, tracing how harm formed, hardened, and persisted until it reaches the first day harm became possible. This is not a redemption story, so don't expect to find inspiration, healing arcs, or closure. But if you’re looking for honesty without absolution, start here.

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Episode 17: I Was Self-Aware and Still Violent