hi friend!

thank you so much for being here today.  please know that throughout today's episode we talk about grief & addiction.

last night i was deleting pictures from my google photos account when i found text messages between tim & i.  the texts threw me right back to the pain, the struggles, the anxiety & the struggles that we - as a couple - were experiencing.  suddenly i had this thought "did i do the right thing? did i make the right decisions?"

in that moment i had to force myself to put the phone down & remind myself that at the time - back in 2019/2020 - i was making decisions based on the information that i had right then & what i felt was best for both of us -- regardless of what anyone else thought.

throughout the episode we discuss this part of the grief journey & the need to have touchstones - aka receipts - to help bring us back to the reality of the situation.

what was actually going on at the time?
what decisions were necessary for my own mental health?
did i do the best that i could?

grief brings up so many questions - especially when that grief is tied to addiction - & sometimes you need that reality check.

i know that this is a heavy topic, so if at any point you feel overwhelmed, please stop the episode & contact your healthcare provider, or find a therapist at betterhelp, to help support you through this time.

as always, thank you for being here & for allowing me to share my experiences & takeaways with you.

i'm always here for you. xoxo