I recorded this over a month ago! It’s nice to check in and really realise the way in which I’ve experienced these edges and expanded, continue to expand! That these thoughts and explorations and parts of myself have been the FOUNDATION for launching me into the here and now!

Join me in the car as I ponder…

What it is to be seen, witnessed as I am AND simultaneously called higher into my greatness.

I am leaning into the edges of what it is that community looks like and feels like as I watch myself wanting to leave.

I’m finding myself more wiling and able to sit with and unpack the blocks that come up!

Overly responsible and under-ly supported in community and family in the past. So now I’m getting to redefine what community IS, and decide how I engage!

I’m discovering that I am a loving person!

Let me tell you, I am THE most surprised by this realisation. This fact that I do in fact have love to give!

I’m so surprised!

It’s terrifying to me. But to realise it, to realise that this flows from me, without my effort, huge.

Love is energy that wants to move through me freely. And my repression of that causes stagnation in me. And I’m the one most hurt by my own repression.

I’ve lived in fear of there being NO Love tomorrow. But I’m realising, questing oh, realising that the question really is — ‘WHAT ABOUT TODAY!?’

WHAT IF ALL OF ME IS WELCOME IN COMMUNITY AND THATS THE POINT!?

— all of me welcomed and held and that’s where the healing happens, when I let go and BELIEVE that all of me can be known, brought, held, known and none of me needs to be shrunken!

And in so doing I learn how to become a community to and for myself. I learn how to support myself more fully, because I have a felt sense of what it feels like to be held!

Mentioned in this episode —

Attachment styles — avoidant, ambivalent, anxious

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